The Bell of Life – Zen Monastery Lessons On Living Here And Now

How would the Buddha meet your life challenges?

When I was 19, I had the chance of spending 10 weeks in a small Zen-Buddhist monastery in France (Ardèche). Since I was committed to the path of becoming a Zen monk, it was a good “test-drive” opportunity. The head nun (Joshin Sensei), knowing of my intentions, was especially “severe” with me attentive to me. And I am grateful for that, because what I have learned and experienced during that time has helped me in life ever since.

Flowers fall even though we love them;

Weeds grow even though we dislike them.

– Dogen Zenji

My Zen Monastery Training

To say that life at the temple was simple would be an understatement. There was no time for wandering, chit-chatting or, needless to say, using technology. No TV, no phones, no entertainment. And almost no choosing. Every hour of the day was scripted into a very clear and tight routine – seated meditation, working in the temple (cleaning the hall, assembling wood, cooking, etc.), eating or sleeping. There was a time for everything, and my practice was to be 100% present in the moment, and to just follow wholeheartedly that lifestyle.

At 4:45am the bell would ring, and it was time to immediately get up, brush my teeth, get changed, and quickly go to the meditation hall – all in less than 15 minutes. It was not “stressful”, but it did require full presence of spirit. No time to be wandering with my thoughts and feelings, or else I would be late. The time given was intentionally short for the purpose of this training.

BodhidharmaYou see, one of the tenets of Zen training is that body and mind are one. When your mind is wandering, your body will show; it will be less flowing, less alive, and less “efficient”. Life in a monastery is set up in a way to make such moments painfully clear. It works as a huge mirror for ourselves, showing when we are truly living life, or when we are just engaged in our own mental chatter.

At the end of the morning meditation, the bell would ring again and it was time to go to the kitchen to prepare the breakfast together with the head nun. The routine for that was also intensely meticulous, requiring full attention in the present moment, as well as attending to multiple things simultaneously. The nun seemed to be able to read my mind through my activity, and would always call my attention whenever my thoughts engaged into memories or imagination. “Where are you now, Giovanni? The rice is cooking…

Hour after hour, there was always something we needed to attend to in the present moment. Regardless of what was going on inside me, the monastery had its own life; its own routine. And I had to respond to it, to be one with it. It was life happening at every moment; not asking my permission, not caring about my moods and opinions.

When the bell rang, it didn’t matter if I was feeling tired or excited, happy or depressed, worried or confident – it was now time to wash the floor. Sometimes my mind was busy or absent. Then my movements would be slow, uneven, and the broom would make more noise when sweeping the floor. I would then feel a tap on my shoulder… The nun, holding her own broom, stops and reminds me: “This moment, Giovanni. This is all you have.

It was the same thing with the food that was served. Sometimes I liked it, sometimes I didn’t. But that was the food that was given, and there was no other option. I remember the first breakfast there… Aside from the Japanese soup, it included bread and jam. Problem is, I always hated jam… (I know, right, what type of person hates jam?!) so I would eat just the bread, leaving the jam untouched.  Soon the nun noticed. “We are here to develop a mind of equanimity, and not to be picky. Learn to work with what life gives you. How would the Buddha eat the breakfast?

I understood the subtle cue. So, on the following morning I made the effort to try the jam. I observed my hand getting the jam and placing that terrible spread all over my beautiful slice of bread, and then taking it to my mouth. My thoughts were that it would taste bad. But I chose to just do it, and to be mindfully there.

To my surprise, it did not taste bad. It just tasted… different! Suddenly I could eat the jam with no problems. At the end, I even learned to enjoy it.

Life at the monastery was full of tiny demands to be fully in the present, to let go of preferences, moods and opinions, and “just flow”. The sum of all these parts, day after day, facilitated the mind to learn to operate from a more open space, a larger space.

[The pictures below are from the monastery, which in French is called La Demeure Sans Limites. At that time I lived in Brazil, but traveled to France to practice in this small but lively monastery, because it was there where the main disciple of my Zen master taught.]

The Choice of the Present Moment

After a couple of weeks at the monastery, something very powerful started happening. I was able to just be there, not needing to know what was going to happen, and to meet life in the present moment. Instead of my thoughts and feelings, oOpen presence (or mindfulness) had become the dominant force. My “self” was no longer a small dark thing inside my brain; it was now embracing the whole monastery and integrating skilfully with life around me.

This was one of the greatest lessons from that period of intense training. Indeed, one of the hundreds of meditation benefits is developing equanimity, which is the capacity to maintain internal calmness and composure in all moments, instead of being swayed by the opposites. To meet pleasure and pain, praise and blame, good and bad luck, with the same state of mind. This virtue will give you almost “superhuman” powers of clarity and strength through challenges that make most people experience confusion, anxiety or stress.

No matter what is happening outside yourself, or even inside yourself, you have the ability to meet life with presence of spirit and wisdom. You don’t need to be a puppet of your thoughts and feelings – they only have the power you give them. For this truth to be your own, you need the courage and discipline to be present, mindful and open throughout all challenges in your life. And to realize that how you react to events is a choice – however automatic it may be – and not a necessity. You have the power to change it.

Every time the bell of life rings, you can be there with mindfulness and an open heart, or you can be half there and half in your stories. You can choose to see that event through the eyes of your preferences and your emotions; to try to force reality into your personal bias. Or you can experience it and respond from a deeper place inside yourself – a place that sees all events as opportunities to express your true self, and all moments as equally precious. This is a place of non-judgement, of rest, of equanimity. This is the place the Buddha lived from.

Acceptance is not passive resignation. It changes the focus from fighting the present moment to working with the present moment – either to change it or to enjoy it. You conserve your energy and sanity; and, when needed, you can also powerfully change the reality around you. But first you need to accept and see clearly. Failing to accept things as they are is a source of much suffering.

Whether you stress out and act, or just breathe deeply and act, the outside happening remains the same. The bell of life will keep ringing. But the quality of your experience, of your living, can be very different.

  • This is different from what I usually post in this blog. Please let me know your thoughts 🙂

    • I thought it was great. I followed a link from Reddit to get here, so I don’t know what you usually post. Really enjoyed it. Thanks for taking the time to write it all out.

    • Thanks for your feedback, Derek!

    • dooj

      this is excellent! i followed a reddit link here as well.

      the way you clearly and simply illustrated utilizing mindfulness is very well done. it’s very easy to follow, yet there is a lot here to chew on. it sounds like it was an amazing experience, thanks for sharing.

    • Jo

      I really appreciated this post and found it to be a powerful reminder to get back to the present moment. Thank you for writing such an inspiring piece.

  • Kannan

    In a way as far as the mind is concerned, this is also a routine stuff, Mind/body gets habituated and start doing the activities, irrespective of the situation.

    Yes, meditation is living moment to moment without any choice of our own, but I feel at the same it should be dynamic enough and ever changing…then the REALITY can be experienced…

    • Yes. One of the challenges is bringing the learnings and skills from the monastery life into our daily life, which is a very different setting.
      On the other hand, keeping alive and present within routines can itself be challenging. Our brain tends to go to automatic mode when we are doing something repetitive.

  • Grace

    Well written short lesson. As the writer you brought me into the moment and walked through the mindful thoughtful process of how you got there, why you were there, what happened while you were there, and how your felt moment to moment. Truly, I was in the moment as if I could visualize your moment in time. And you did that in a short blog.

  • Grace, Kannan, Jo, Dooj, Derek:
    My original idea was to do a guest post with this piece, but it got rejected by three different sites.
    So I’m glad to read your feedback!

  • Pierre

    Thank you Giovanni for this beautiful and inspirational post. That is the way I like. short but lessons full.

    Pierre

  • Anjali

    what an interesting post!!! Simply loved it :-)!

    Its well written. The beauty of this post is that, while reading I was actually with you in the monastery. Its packed with the importance of being HERE and NOW.

    For me again its right in time. I was going through a bad experience.
    Constantly churning over the thoughts. To me this post was a powerful reminder, to be in the PRESENT. Truly, I have started to firmly believe; life gives you exactly what you need at that point in time for your growth.

    Thanks a lot Giovanni!

  • Scott

    Terrific post ! I need to re-read it. I was thinking about this today…of being in the present. As I was preparing dinner, I needed ice from our freezer. When I reached in to get a handful, a thought that had nothing to do with dinner or what I was doing at that time entered my mind and I dropped iced cubes all over the floor. I thought afterwards…would that have happened if I would have been truly present without that thought entering my mind ?

    • Ah yes, our body is a great teacher that continuously show us the way 🙂

  • Spiritual Warrior

    Thank you for such a humble and light sharing of yours. I thoroughly enjoyed reading this. I always aspired the monk life & your article filled me with envy – in a good way 😉

    • In that case I’d definitely recommend you try this lifestyle for a while. There are many monasteries in the west that allow you to stay there for some time.

  • Common Man

    So beautifully written

  • Common Man

    Giovanni.. I have noticed that thoughts captures you overpowers you drives you.. and I keep on struggling who is sending me these thoughts.. for that matter.. why I am writing these lines.. so eventually gets so much entangled within myself that my “NOW” gets confused .
    i am sure you are very near to enlightenment.. u deserve that:)

    • Hi Common Man!
      Indeed, thoughts are the fabric of our inner world, and they hypnotize us. It is a long but fruitful training to slowly separate our consciousness from obsessive thinking.
      Thanks for stopping by!

  • Paul William

    The last lines carry much truth in themselves..! Very nice article, enjoyed it 🙂
    Greetings from Chiang Mai

  • Cederique

    Hello Giovanni.

    May I ask you how you got into contact with the Head nun?
    How did you manage to arrange a 10 week stay? Was there a Financial cost to this?

    In other words, is this possible for me, a layman?
    Thank you,

    Cédérique

    • It was donation based. You should be able to participate, yes. Have a look at their website for the schedules.